raven shadowborne ©
January 10, 1998
You think I don't see the tears you cry
the fears you hide
the pain you feel
the rage you carry
You think I don't see the love withdrawn
the darkness in your eyes
the shadow of death you hide behind
You think I don't see the attempts you make
your shock at fate
your inner strength
I see all that and more..
as I sit and watch..
seeing all that you show
and all that you lost
Remembering the man you used to be
wondering where that man could be
pushing, pulling, urging, cajoling
trying with every trick I know
to pull you up to your feet
I sit and feel my love for you dying
as each day passes with no reprieve
the days turn to months..
the months to years
you sit and you mourn
one who still lives
You sit and you grieve
for a past which is gone
damning the present to frustration and rage
cursing our future to a lifeless haze
You've let life defeat you
with such a small blow
You've lived through worse
and stood on your own
Yet this time you fell
I sit in the coffin you've placed me in
watching my life, my loves and my soul swallowed within
I draw breath still..blood courses my veins
Yet your eyes show the pain of my passing
I struggle and fight to bring back the light
never once thinking I would lose..
screaming to you.."But I still live!"
praying to god you would see..
the light remains out..
so here I sit..
in this grave you gave me..
my mind weary and broken
heart and soul depleted
one last whisper of I still live..
I concede defeat