Raven Shadowborne: Untitled

UNTITLED

raven shadowborne ©
January 10, 1998

                        You think I don't see the tears you cry
                        the fears you hide
                        the pain you feel
                        the rage you carry

                        You think I don't see the love withdrawn
                        the darkness in your eyes
                        the shadow of death you hide behind

                        You think I don't see the attempts you make
                        your shock at fate
                        your inner strength

                        I see all that and more..
                        as I sit and watch..
                        seeing all that you show
                        and all that you lost

                        Remembering the man you used to be
                        wondering where that man could be
                        pushing, pulling, urging, cajoling
                        trying with every trick I know
                        to pull you up to your feet

                        I sit and feel my love for you dying
                        as each day passes with no reprieve
                        the days turn to months..
                        the months to years

                        you sit and you mourn
                        one who still lives
                        You sit and you grieve
                        for a past which is gone
                        damning the present to frustration and rage
                        cursing our future to a lifeless haze

                        You've let life defeat you
                        with such a small blow
                        You've lived through worse
                        and stood on your own
                        Yet this time you fell

                        I sit in the coffin you've placed me in
                        watching my life, my loves and my soul swallowed within
                        I draw breath still..blood courses my veins
                        Yet your eyes show the pain of my passing
                        I struggle and fight to bring back the light
                        never once thinking I would lose..
                        screaming to you.."But I still live!"
                        praying to god you would see..
                        the light remains out..

                        so here I sit..
                        in this grave you gave me..
                        my mind weary and broken
                        heart and soul depleted
                        one last whisper of I still live..

finally silent..
I concede defeat